As I said, "Something must be changed"

Everyday, I woke up empty. No goal, no motivation, nothing. I stare myself in the mirror, wondering what this young chap can do. I just don't feel complete, is this the best I can do? Seriously, I am irritated by myself and I am utterly bored of it. I am so scared.

How could I allow myself failing so badly? How could I put myself in this kind of situation when I know it's all avoidable?

I want something different today. This will be my last post here for no particular reason. When it's time, I will let you find me. But now, I am running away...